forging

Even though I’ve been a mama for a few years, there’s still a lot of blind forging.  I collect quotes and I carry snacks and I'm fairly confident in my work.  But as much as I want to do things like a good mother, most of the time I don’t know what I’m doing until I’m doing it.  I guess the only mattering part is that I’m doing it.  Whatever it is, I’m doing it.  Mothering in all of its holy minutiae, admiring the "dinosaur skull" and soaping up the stinky feet, most of the time, I'm doing it with my whole heart.